Count your Blessings

I've been having a rough couple of weeks to say the least, however I just recently had a Moment.  You know, one of those Moments where you take a step back from your problems and look at the bigger picture.  The way I see it, I have the following things going for me:

  • I was hired on to a contract that puts me on client-site and gives me excellent experience handling contract financials and personnel management, which in turn puts me in an excellent position career-wise both short- and long-term.
  • I live in the DMV, which for all my whining and complaining is an amazing place to be for a young socially-conscious and politically-aware young IT professional like myself.  I'm literally surrounded by opportunity.
  • I think I make a strong candidate for one of the top-tier MBA programs in the area, regardless of which one I choose.  Which itself exposes me to more positive experience and opportunity for success.

My relationship situation (or lack thereof) and lack of dependents are part of the reason why I was able to tear up roots and move out here.  Moving out here is the only reason why I have the above positives going for me.

So why complain?  Good point.  From this point on I'll make it a point to remember that I'm in the driver's seat, not hitchhiking.

See you at the finish line.  Or not.


In honor of my second year as a duly initiated Brother of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity, Inc. My favorite poem, and a poem I wish all Brothers took to heart.

To Be an Alpha Man – Bro. Fred Woodruff

To be an Alpha Man means more than just to wear a Pin
It requires intrinsic qualities that are developed deep within
It calls for lasting Brotherhood, a word sometimes used in vain
It means honest Devotion, not anticipation of personal gain

Fraternity speaks of Brotherly Love; that's something to achieve
It's more than just a Grip of hands, it's an Ideal to conceive
You're proud to be an Alpha and share Her praises won
Before you inflate yourself with Pride ask yourself, honestly How much have I done?

To realize the Wealth of Personal Satisfaction, from knowing you've given your all
To have helped Her cause unfalteringly, when you rally to Her call
To combine all these Qualities and root them deep within
The product would be an Alpha man, deserving of his Pin

So take an honest inventory of your Character within
And for every virtue you find missing, try and weave it in
For a man without these virtues isn't worth a grain of Sand
It's plain to see, it's more than just a Pin that makes an Alpha Man

Golden Birthday

There are moments which mark your life; moments when you realize nothing will ever be the same, and time is divided into two parts: before this, and after this. Now sometimes you can feel such a moment coming; that's the test – or so I tell myself. I tell myself that at times like that, the strong people keep moving forward anyway…no matter what they're going to find. – Denzel Washington as Det. John Hobbes, Fallen

I'm awake at 6a, ready to start a week that feels like the start of something.  A week that wraps up six tumultuous years in which I got dumped, moved to Detroit, got a job, started school, did some dating, ran a 5K, got accepted to a prestigious law school on scholarship, completed my degree, got promoted, crossed Alpha, got laid off, and moved to Baltimore.  I'm willing to admit that since I made the decision to stick with my career and not go to law school that I've lacked purpose and direction. And it's shown. But now I know what I want and more importantly I know how to get it. This week will hopefully be the beginning of that next chapter.

It's good to have a plan again.

This Saturday, the 31st, is my 31st birthday. Stay tuned for some birthday resolutions.

Commentary & Musings from Jason Rashaad